5 months to go

"Are you excited?"...

... that's what they ask me upon learning that our wedding is only months away.  I think there was just one incidence that I did feel excited and that was when I was about to fall asleep. That's when my heart raced and realized that indeed our BIG day is near but then thinking too much about it made me fall asleep. I awoke with no feeling of jitters at all.

So what have my fiance and I been up to since my last blog? Well, we've finalized almost all of the bookings made a few months back.  Our major concern nowadays is the invitation and the guest list.  Although we have a pretty accurate estimate of the number of guests, there's still a sense of being unsure because we will really never know who's going to show up until the day comes.

We've made our usual rounds to printers and designers of invitations.  We're still thinking whether we should do the layout ourselves or have it done by the experts and spare ourselves the hassle.  But there is also a great sense of fulfillment of having to do it on our own.  We have yet to figure that out (crammers, aren't we?).

Initially, we wanted something useful for our giveaways.  Something to grow, something to write on, something to use in the kitchen.  But I don't know. We are still blurry on that.  We are more inclined though to rent a photobooth where our guests can let loose and let them take photos as many as they want.  I think that would be fun.  We also thought of making standees of ourselves as props.  But there's the question of what to do with those life-size standees after... THAT would be a waste of money but A WHOLE LOT of fun.  I can't imagine the things our friends and family would do with those props.  Still... it's a waste of money. But then... Yeah. Money. A Waste. Yeah.

Then came a bump on the road.  First, my fiance's grandfather fell ill.  And they were already talking about having to move the date an earlier date if something happens to him due to Chinese tradition.  I was very upset about it to the point that my fiance and I fought about it.  But his grandfather got better and everything got back to normal.  And I'm hoping and praying that he would be okay for good.  Second, we got recent news that my sister and her family couldn't make it on our wedding.  This is because her application for a vacation leave was denied for a reason I cannot entirely accept.  Her other co-workers were given priority of the leave for July.  I don't know if it's discrimination or racism or what any other BS.  It's a wedding--a once in a lifetime event.  I wouldn't be this emotional if it wasn't her.  I really want her to be present on our wedding day.  I just cannot understand why her management cannot grant her that.  If all else fails, I may have to write the management a letter... pleading for her to go. Sigh... But that's life. I'm not accepting it. I'm still thinking of ways.

So there... the past few months weren't so busy.  The pressure begins now.  But I'm lucky to have a very organized and involved fiance that I don't feel that much pressure.  And I'm thankful. At least we do the planning together. And I guess I can say that I am excited...not for the wedding day but for ever after ^_^